October has simply passed me by. Weddings, traveling and life was so busy, I've blinked and now it is November. I have quickly removed all of my halloween decor from my home, because honestly its making me a little sad. I feel as if I totally missed my favorite season of September and October and ::poof:: it is now the holidays. While yes, I love the holidays very much, life is just moving so fast. I want to press the brakes on our life and pause it for a moment. My sweet pumpkin baby is already 15 months,walks, is starting to talk and get into mischief. She isn't much of my pumpkin baby anymore, but rather a pumpkin toddler. I am an extremely nostalgic person . Music, memories, pictures and home movies often gut me.. stab me in the heart ..take my breath away...and make me long for yesterday. All of yesterday; three days ago, 6 months of ago or ten years ago. Which is all very strange for me because I don't want to be a child again. I love my adult life. I love my wonderful adoring husband, my precious baby and my beautiful home. I love being a mom more than anything in the world. I've waited all my life for these moments I am living. But I am constantly looking back to or looking forward to what is next. While out loud I am a very boisterous,outgoing and positive, inside I am often sad, quiet, negative and wishing for time. So I today I am trying to be committed to that outgoing and positive person, both inside and out. Since I basically missed our witch's thanksgiving I am doing thirty days of thanks in the month of November, just for myself (witches can give thanks every month, right!?). Few people read my blog anymore.. and I am not into voicing things for the whole world to read via facebook.. so I will start here..
I am thankful...
My family and I are healthy. No one has cancer. No one is dying. There are tons and tons of people who would give anything to watch their baby grow, to watch them learn to walk and talk. There are many people who are not healthy enough to cook dinner for their families and spill spaghetti sauce on the floor. There are many people who are not able to grow as old as I, at my ripe age of almost thirty. I am blessed to have had a childhood that is so fondly remembered, rather than quickly forgotten.
I am lucky...
I am blessed...
I am grateful..
namaste, and blessed be
with love,
-A
I am thankful...
My family and I are healthy. No one has cancer. No one is dying. There are tons and tons of people who would give anything to watch their baby grow, to watch them learn to walk and talk. There are many people who are not healthy enough to cook dinner for their families and spill spaghetti sauce on the floor. There are many people who are not able to grow as old as I, at my ripe age of almost thirty. I am blessed to have had a childhood that is so fondly remembered, rather than quickly forgotten.
I am lucky...
I am blessed...
I am grateful..
namaste, and blessed be
with love,
-A
1 comment:
What a great post. I am much the same way you are...I so often long for one or another yesterday. My oldest will be 16 in a week...I miss him being a little baby. Now he's almost 6 feet tall and has a mustache! There are times I just want to make time stop, but I know that's not possible! :(
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